Love is the most over- and underrated abstract noun known to mankind. I’ve ranted, celebrated, bashed, and complained about this topic countless times. This time, I guess it’s a little different. As I’m typing this out, I’m thinking to myself that I must know what I’m talking about. Trust me, I haven’t got a damn clue. I’m just a little impressionable girl who always thinks she knows what she’s talking about till something or someone comes along to change her mind. At one point, my relationships played a big part of my life. Probably, cause I had nothing better to do. And I’m sitting here like, damn, I’m in high school. Why am I worrying about committing, and trying to make long-term decisions. Am I that bored? I’m so young, acting like I know what I need. I let my emotions control me, and who I was. But I’m only a fraction of who I’m going to be. I guess I needed to get busy with other worldly affairs, and get hurt a couple times to finally wake myself up.

My idea of ‘love’ is evolving. I don’t want to say I’ve matured, because I know that when I read this in a couple months, I’m going to think, “Wow, I was stupid.” Just because I have a tendency to do that. I think we all do… Anyway, compared to that old loveydovey, give-it-your-all, head-over-heels girl I used to be, I learned over time that sometimes it’s okay to be that girl as long as I know when to hold my ground. I grew to be one of those people who stopped wearing their heart on their sleeve and I changed my entire emotional wardrobe completely. However, I do find myself putting my heart out there every once in a while. I used to let my feelings be known whenever I felt emotion, which was like… all the time. Now I rarely even talk about or show my emotions. I don’t think it’s a bad thing per se, because love is like a present that comes every once in a while, making you feel more grateful once it comes. It’s done wonders for me. I like who I am. I’m not a hopeless romantic. I am not on a quest to search for my other half. I just want to live and be contented. I’m not asking for anything serious. I just want it to be sweet and simple. Whatever ‘it’ is.