Although the day hasn’t come, this Christmas has been one of my personal bests… It’s been a long time since I felt the warmth and joy of that Christmas feeling. It seems to me that every teenager now-a-days can’t feel Christmas anymore, thinking that the feeling only exists in childhood. That’s completely false. The Christmas feeling comes with the effort. Well, this year, I don’t wish for anything except to see the smiles of the people I love. It’s pretty cheesy, but growing up, Its as if I failed to be part of my family. Instead, I just lived in a house with a family that I never tried to be a part of. I spent most of my years thinking I was a worthy daughter, when in reality, I’ve never given anything to make my parents smile because I was too busy being a teenager. I’m pretty selfish, and I still am. This Christmas, I didn’t have enough money to buy anything for my siblings, but I hope the presents I got for my parents will put a smile on my whole family’s face. This is the first Christmas where I bought presents for my parents. I know it’s probably not much, but I want to show them that I think of them when they’re not with me. I suppose a gift is a silent way of saying everything that can’t be said out loud. I think this is what Christmas feels like to me… Unselfish, kind, and sweet.